Sleepwalking is so interesting to me. It’s amazing that someone (I have done it too) can walk up stairs without tripping, speak full sentences, even go outside, and still be asleep! My sister-in-law, Naomi, has some great childhood stories and one of my favorites involves sleepwalking. Unfortunate for Naomi – the youngest sibling of three older and merciless brothers – this situation happened in front of her older brothers. The boys were sitting at the kitchen table when Naomi entered the room and began turning the light off and on, over and over, as she claimed that she was searching for gold.
Roughly six years ago I was doing another kind of sleepwalking. I was “sleepwalking” through my own life, but I didn’t even know it. The reality was that life and ministry were busy, we had three small kids, I was tired and I had been struggling with depression. Life was overwhelming and without realizing it I disengaged emotionally. I was still physically showing up (most of the time), but really just going through the motions of life.
My awareness came when I attended a Personal Mastery weekend with Klemmer and Associates. I had no interest in going, but my parents offered to pay and told me it would help grow my business. That sounded safe to me, so I went. It did help grow my business, but it also radically transformed my thinking, my relationships and my life.
Over that weekend, I became aware of how I was sitting on the sidelines of my own life. Often I wasn’t even showing up at all, sitting through meetings, church, homework time, even family dinner in a stupor. I was missing out. My kids and husband were missing out. My business teammates were missing out. I was not living to my full potential – I was hardly engaged at all! That weekend I chose to wake up and get in the game. I remember coming home, hugging Joe (and really feeling it) and sitting on the floor with the kids (and really being with them). It was incredible and positively overwhelming. I realized in those moments all I had been missing out on. I woke up and I could see what was really happening all around me. I was changed!
That was not the end of the journey. I had so much more to learn and so much more room for growth, but it was an extraordinary start. I challenge you to step into the extraordinary and start living the life you were designed to live. As I often remind myself . . the extraordinary life is worth it! I would love to hear about your journey.